When it comes to them, I am either 100% sure about what I'm doing - as in "don't even bother trying to change my mind" - or I am incapable of deciding. There is no middle road; I don't make choices that I'm okay with or that I'm pretty sure of. It's all or nothing.
So when it came to the issue of buying a home and where I'm going to live for the foreseeable future, I didn't have a freaking clue.
No...that's not entirely true. There were some aspects that I was very sure of. I will not live in a house - it's a condo or apartment for this girl. I know that I will not live in a ground floor suite. I know that I want to stay as close as possible to the neighbourhood I currently live in.
So in the past month and a half, deciding to buy a home has been a pretty big deal for me. There were lots of moments where I questioned if I am doing the right thing...lots of times where I felt like I just didn't know enough about real estate or the type of home that I should be looking for, so maybe I should stop this and just find a new apartment to rent for another year or two....lots of moments of "what the hell am I getting myself into?" and second thoughts.
But in the end, something felt right about this. Something in me kept urging "it's time". So I listened to my gut this time and put money down on a condo project that is currently being built in my area of the city. It doesn't get me out of my apartment as soon as possible, which is something I was hoping for. But it is brand new; I got to choose the flooring, cupboards, layout, and floor that I want to live on; and the time I have to wait for it being built will give me the time to save up additional money for a larger down payment.
I'm trying to temper my excitement at this point. I won't be moving until late next summer/early fall, so that's a long time and I really don't want to start feeling impatient at any point. But every morning when I go outside and have to scrape the ice off the windows of my car, I can't help but think to myself "Next winter I won't have to do this". Right now, that's good enough for me.
And every once and awhile, I do a little bit of a happy dance and sing "I bought myself a condo!!!"